Why Me?

As I'm sitting here after tucking in my adorable 4 year old son I wonder, why me?  Not, why not me, why I haven't been given something, or why did this have to happen to me, but why me... why did God choose me to take care of such a beautiful, loving child like my DS?  I am having to take time out over the past few days and regroup and rethink what I've been given in this life.  Yes, I've been given the tough journey of infertility, twice now, but I have also been given the opportunity to conceive and carry a child, which is more than some.  I've also been given the opportunity to have the love of my child in my heart and to hear "Mommy", the sweetest words.  Don't get me wrong, I'm still devastated about our last failure and still trying to figure out its purpose in my life, but I also have come realize, through these recent failures, how lucky I am to have gotten my son.  There are no guarantees in life and I was never guaranteed my son.  So I'll love on my DS a little more and say a little prayer to God, "Why me, why do I get to be so lucky?".