Baby in a Box

My medications arrived yesterday and I chuckled as I opened this massive box of hormones and such!  There were tons of syringes, tons of vials of meds, tons of oral medications, and all kinds of other gadgets to accompany the meds.  All of this just to make a baby!  I chuckle because for most, all it took was a little wine and nice dinner out (for some, not even that much!), but for me, it takes ALL THIS!  I've labeled it my "baby in a box".  I remember getting my meds for the first IVF cycle and it was like opening a fun new toy to play with.  I took out all of the little this and thats to "play" with them in anticipation of the cycle.  This time, I'm a little less excited.  I'm scarred by my failures, so its a little less 'fun' and a little more 'real'.  It seems like much more medicine than before, but it was 5 years ago and my memory is a little vague on those details.  So here we go.  I just have to wait for my baseline u/s next Monday and assuming that comes out clear, I'll be starting my shots next week.